As I sift through my papers, etc. that got haphazardly moved from my old home, I periodically come across "gems" such as the following. I wrote this verbatim in September of 2011, 7 months before I left.
I feel:
angry
EXHAUSTED
depressed
ANGRY
sad
betrayed
incredulous
disappointed
protective
helpless
threatened
disillusioned
LOST
unbelieving
deflated
ATTACKED
devastated
untrusting
duped
repayment?
hate
emotionally raped
I don't even recall what happened to make me write this, as I did not record it in my "wife of a diabetic" blog. Sometimes, things were just too painful to even post. I do know that I frequently felt the need to jot things like this down . . . if nothing else, to validate my feelings, as hubby certainly wasn't going to! It also on some level helped me to know I wasn't nuts, as did the blog. Anyway, running across these snippets of my former life is a good thing. It reminds me of where I've been, and of the need to keep moving forward, with no regrets. Here's to much better days!
